Monday, March 30, 2009

i just need some happy so here it is.

(Sorry I'm a picture stealer.)

It makes me feel less alone.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I went on a James Ivory spree because they were free to watch at The Auteurs

and after Shakespeare Wallah and Heat and Dust, I'm officially over it. I'd already seen Howards End during my Helena Bonham Carter phase and Bombay Talkie at the Modern (and I own A Room With a View), so that's more than half. My work there is done.

Tonight I'm watching Tati's Mon Oncle which I can't remember if I've seen or not. I sat through Air Bud and The Game Plan for Bradley, so I feel like I owe it to myself to find out. I really should be reading but Nietzsche puts me to sleep and I refuse to move on to something more... lively... until I understand what the heck he's talking about.

My butt hurts from all the bicycle riding and my face is sunburned. Guess I forgot moisturizer. My bestest, Bonnie, is launching her photography website tomorrow. I'm so proud. My AFI Dallas peeps are putting on an amazing festival from what I keep hearing. I'm pretty lucky to know such talented people.

Still job hunting and writing that short. Keep your fingers crossed that it doesn't suck and we get the much needed grant money to shoot it on 35mm. Turns out this year's theme (for the fellowship and grant $) is exactly what my story is about. I feel like it's meant to be.

this is awsm

(I highly recommend the HD button)

if you can drink tap water and breathe the air, say shhh...

Today B and I took a nice, long bike ride around town. Our goal was to find the library, which has apparently moved, for chapter book borrowing and video collection scouring. Along the way we visited two parks, a hockey rink (B's convinced it's his new calling in life but it's not happening, so he'll have to deal with watching other people play) and a rec center where we had a picnic and then spun around on the tire swing until we almost puked. It was fun and the weather was perfect. I'm so ready for sunshine, Spring, green grass and more time with my favorite dude.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Two days in to our not-so-little film festival

AFI DALLAS Opening Night was BIG. The director and cast of The Brothers Bloom were here, everyone loved the movie, Adrien Brody got his Star Award and there was a huge party with fancy dresses and lots of happy attendees. Not too bad. Adrien Brody was great, as was supercool director Rian Johnson. I spent the evening with Rinko Kikuchi who is one of the stars of the film and possibly one of the most fun people I've ever met. I kinda love her. By the end of the night I had more business cards than I could hold and grotesquely swollen feet.

Tonight I wore flats... and slacks, a button down and tie. I look a little like a boy but I'm ok with that. I spent my day transporting filmmakers and actors here and there and doing the red carpet stuff. My buddy James M. Johnston of Spiral Diner and DFW filmmaking fame walked the carpet for his film St. Nick. Robin Wright Penn signed some guy's copy of The Princess Bride, which was cool. I really enjoyed meeting Jay DiPietro and Jess Weixler, the director and actress from Peter and Vandy (which I really liked), and Paul Solet, Jordan Ladd (and her dad David Ladd!) from Grace (which is just awesome). I'm now blogging, checking emails and resting my feet before heading out into the blizzard (below freezing temps and tsunami wind) to make my way to the festival lounge for good times.

I wish more than anything that this post was more about the films themselves, but that wasn't really part of my experience this year. It feels very soulless when you don't see all the films and know them ahead of time, so I'm struggling with that. Either way, it's all done for a good reason and I really hope that this fest pulls through.

Signing off...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

SLC Wrap-up

Salt Lake was a blast! We had B's birthday party first thing on Saturday. I got to bond with my beloved Katie (somehow we didn't get a picture together - gasp!) and see this cute little family in their beautiful new home. Lainey became my BFF right away and we had a fabulous three days together. How can you not fall in love with that face... HOW I ASK?! Sister is probably crying for me right now. Bradley and Jaren did the best friend thing and K-harm and I did the girly thing... and I had a Lime Rickey. Perfect.
Then Jesseface came and picked me up and drove me through the beautiful Utah snow to Missy's house. There I ate her delicious cooking (who would have ever thought homegirl was so domestic, for real) and met her super sweet and patient boyfriend. I say patient because the man sat through hours of Will & Grace and hysterical girl laughing without batting an eye. I'm so so happy for Missy. And may I just say that I love the sweetness that is Jesse Richmond. I do. The man is hilarious and being around him, even after three years or however long it's been, was just like it's always been.
The Harmz had the great idea to take the little people to a kids museum and we all had a blast. Me and KT had to regulate on some kids who apparently did not have parents or brains, but it was a great time. Bradley told me at the Austin airport, just before we finally headed home, that he is an expert traveler. Indeed he is. This trip reminded me what a truly amazing person he is.

It was nice to be with so many people who love me. It was nice to see Bradley so happy. It was nice to see tiny snowflakes on my eyelashes. It was nice to look down at the earth.

Early morning airport blues

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Happy B(radley)Day!

I can't believe you're 7 years old!
(Kind of bummed this didn't make it up on the 21st but it's been a non-stop party here in Salt Lake!)

Friday, March 20, 2009


Don't know if this is necessary, as I've been posting pictures non-stop since I got to Austin... but here it is anyway.

By some miracle I made it to Austin in 2.5 hours on exactly half a tank of gas. First stop was Longbranch Inn to see Tera Melos. As much as I knew what I was expecting, I was NOT expecting that. It was so intense and still so technical and great. I don't know how to describe it except that I felt a little like my face had been blown off by the end of it. Then I got to hang out and catch up with John (Clardy, drummer of Tera Melos) and watch King Khan who looked freakishly like my friend Set and played a pretty fun, dancey show. Some of my buddies from the Observer were at that show and I bought B a Tera Melos shirt for his birthday (which I actually wore the next day... don't tell him).

By that time my friends were off work and congregating so I went to Justin's, ate some veggies and tofu from Whole Foods (thanks Gg!) and zoned out to video games. There was much walking that night and the absorbtion of random free music. I ran into Denton friends, met up with random people, saw Solange and the dude that played Pam's fiance on
The Office and saw my darling Jordan for the first time in forever. I saw Tera Melos play another show, this time in a parking lot and somehow it was even better. The crowd was on top of the band, crowded in between instruments and speakers, tripping over cords, the whole thing. Some kids had come from out of state just to see Tera Melos play in a parking lot. It was pretty cool. At some point we managed to pull what little cred we had and got in VIP at the Red Bull Moon Tower party. I thought it would be lame (free booze isn't really a draw for me) and pretentious but it turned out to be a good time thanks to the people I call my friends. Lady Sovereign played and yelled and cursed about something that had her really upset. Her samples were a bit tired and she was totally boring but it was at least dance worthy, so we took full advantage of that. I'm pretty sure that the crowd only started dancing collectively because of our shameless little group up front. I finally fell asleep after Twittering somewhere around 6 a.m.

Justin and I were up and on the Dillo by 1 the next afternoon. We did a bunch of walking, inhaled pizza and bottled water and made our way up the stairs to the Nah Right party where I FINALLY got to catch Blue Scholars and, once again, was amazed by what they brought to a live show. It was so much fun but only about a 5 or 6 song set. The worst tease ever. Justin had never heard of them but was in awe (which makes sense, we're both hipsters with hiphop roots) and may have a new favorite. I shared a cute moment with the DJ and then was on my way. My way involved taking in 6th with all the hippies, hipsters and homos in Austin and, of course, more walking. Eventually I forced Justin to see Tinted Windows (Taylor Hanson's side project with the Asian dude from Smashing Pumpkins) with me at the Fader Fort party. It would be disrespectful to my people to comment on the music but all my love goes out to Justin for making it through that. Tay came out in tight red pants and danced around. I may never live down my reaction.

I ended my two day stint with almost no sleep or food but also zero money spent, lots of fun had and super tight muscles in my legs and bum. We decided that we covered close to ten miles! I'm covered in stamps and fake tattoos that don't wash off, and I'm pretty sure I still smell. I'm so glad I went. I feel recharged. I feel lucky to have the people in my life that I have. When I'm with them it's like I was never away, I'm me again. There is much that I'd like to say right now but I know how cheesy I tend to be. I will leave it at this... If given the opportunity, choose to live a little. If not, create it.

Tinted Windows: Did they play music?

I don't know but Taylor Hanson wore tight red pants and girl glasses and danced around. Yow!

808 LOVE

Uuuugh what happened last night?

On the Dillo headed over to pick up our Fader Fort party wristbands. SXSW day 2 promises to be just as good as the first.

Red Bull party, VIP, LadySov

Did we dance till 5am? Yes we did.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

a parking lot

Whole Foods dinner + Nazi zombiez

Delicious tofu and veggies that I didn't pay for and watching my friends be nerds. Feeling restless but happy.

holy dot dot dot

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


I ran this restore program thingy and I'm pretty sure it found my screenplay but I don't have time to sift through everything and find out right now.
Oh yeah, I still write for the Observer.
Other than that there's the annual AFI stuff going on. You can find out about it here. There's some cool stuff there if you look around. You should come.
That's all I got.

Monday, March 16, 2009


I finally finished my screenplay at 3 a.m., hit the save button, the program froze and crashed. I opened the script back up and only 1 of 8 pages was saved. No problem, thought I, autosave is on. Checked the backup docs...nothing. I don't even know how that's possible. I spent hours making it perfect last night. I was inspired. I can't go back and rewrite that. I don't want to go back to the place I was in to write it. I don't even know if I can. I am so sad right now.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

it's the little things.

There is FINALLY a vegan-friendly, Whole Foods-esque (but cheaper!) grocery story in my neighborhood! Thank you, Market Street!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Please Say Something

Please Say Something - Full Length from David OReilly on Vimeo.

Few will understand, but this had a profound effect on me.

true love

Richard Roeper called my need to blog self-motivating reminders

"insecure optimism"

I think you hit the nail on the head, Mr. Film Critic Man.
To be clear, insecurely optimistic and insecure - not the same thing.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I'm posting this so that tomorrow when I crumple again I will feel silly and pick myself back up.

So I've been kinda up and down lately (you're all gasping here, I know) because I'm feeling a little... crumpled. (That's the best word I can think of to describe it.) I really want to NOT feel like that anymore so here are the simple (and less simple) steps I'm taking.

1. Fix the hair. I'm a little like the curly blond girl Samson and right now my face feels dull because my hair is not FABOOSH. So first things first, I'm chopping and Kerastase-ing it back to normal! Simple. Powerful.

2. Perk up the booty. I have been Turbo Jamming twice, yes, TWICE a day. Don't believe me? Wait two weeks. I promise pictures.

3. Be above it. Today people at "work" were awful. There was drama, yelling, whining, childish behavior and just plain meanness. So you know what I did? I closed up my laptop, packed my bags and said peace out. It's not like they're paying me or appreciating my talent anyway! I feel like I've been surrounded by a lot of negativity lately (admittedly, I've allowed it) so I am making a major effort to remain above. I want to be kind and thoughtful, go out of my way to do something good for someone, not yell, pay extra attention to Bradley even when he's telling me for the 5 billionth time that Star Wars is real and he can prove it. I am by no means saying that I'm some great example. In fact, I've been awful lately. But if I can remember my standards and hold to them, it has proven to be well worth the effort. Also, that's where I get my strength and I need that strength right now.

4. Create. Bonnie gave me a simple reminder to enjoy this unemployed time. So I've been writing and I'm almost finished with my first screenplay! I also broke out the paints, scissors and decoupage, needle and thread and odds and ends. Love.

So what's the plan? Patience. Love. Living in the moment. No more worries! When I come back to read this tomorrow I want to remember that life is only so long. I only have so much more time to make an impact on the people and world around me. I've already wasted a year being bummed and self conscious about stuff I can't control. WTF. That's way lame but, frankly, it's easier. When have I ever done what's easy? Come on, Brittan! Here's to the high road, the road less traveled, the long and winding road.

umbrella pile

My sweater is stretched out, my fingers are frozen and my curls are soggy.

Also, this.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


I just realized today that we have Reelz Channel!!!
If I had a social life to lose it would be officially lost.

Monday, March 9, 2009



on the set of dirty red this weekend. tired, sweaty, poor and happy. i love what i do.

(and not just because I get to go to work looking like this.)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

I'll take this over the RED any day. For real.

I get to load the magazine, clean the lens and maneuver the little portable dark room. Eeeeee!

take it from me

If I may, just two suggestions.

1. READ THE GRAPHIC NOVEL. Seriously. You can find it anywhere now and it is necessary to the experience.

2. See it with a friend. It's way less fun alone. :(


Friday, March 6, 2009

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Monday, March 2, 2009


i'm in dallas. i don't have a job anymore. that's all.

this time tomorrow, where will we be?

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I'm in Blythe.

This is the desert. I will be here for a bit. It's hot, stinky (maybe that's me) and desolate, but you know what? It's not Dallas. I'm ready to get lost in creativity.

The crew I'm with is amazing. I'm having fun already but I really miss Bradley. I miss my friends too. I miss AFI Dallas. I miss things being simple and life being full of possibility. I miss feeling secure. But I guess none of that matters now. More from the desert as soon as the desert becomes interesting.

Nikes on the ground got my head to the sky