Wednesday, March 31, 2010

When I grow up...

I got this idea from one of my favorite bloggers, Meg.

It fits in perfectly with what has been going on in my head and my life lately...

When I grow up...
I'll finally travel the world.

I'll own a theatre that shows classic films and supports current independent filmmakers. I will work hard, paint the walls and project the films myself, program diligently and meet the people who come through my doors face to face.

I'll encourage B to follow his dreams, no matter the odds.

I'll volunteer with pregnant teen girls who need a friend and some guidance.

I'll be free from self doubt.

I'll direct films that come from my own heart and head. They'll never go anywhere, but maybe one day long after I die someone will find them, watch them and decide they should be preserved.

I'll plant a garden.

I'll restore an old home and plant a willow tree in the back to signify my putting down roots.

I'll learn to cook tofu.

I'll love a man because of how much he loves me and B.

I'll still wear band t-shirts and Levis and go to concerts and listen to hip-hop and love karaoke and dancing and watch movies every day and live in the 40s in my head and be Brittan... just better.

What about you?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I do believe that this is what it looks like to be happy.

It's lovely, no?
I wonder what it feels like.

Meet my new friend Kyndell.

Isn't she cute? She made the whole wedding experience fun! Thanks, Kyndell.

Jesse's Girl from Brittan on Vimeo.

(this second video is part of an inside joke between myself and Missy that's been running since... 2005? my apologies.)

Library of Congress Nitrate Projectors

If you've seen Inglourious Basterds you know why nitrate film hasn't been used since the 1950s and why only a few theatres can still project it. Here are the nitrate projectors at the Library of Congress theatre. ...I think it's cool.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Social life? What's that?

I was getting depressed over the lack of movies in my life lately, so I'm making a concentrated effort to find time to keep up. I did see The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo on Friday, and it was good. Actually it was exactly like the book. Very Swedish (+10 points), gripping enough to not get boring, awesome lady lead but not I'm not going to tell you all to run out and see it. I do remain extremely happy that the Swedes got to it before Hollywood. I also tried to take a picture of myself in the cute keep-your-ears-warm head wrap thing Katie got me, but I just ended up looking frightened and awkward. Still... thank you, KT!

I spent all day yesterday in a basement in Brooklyn, by myself, cataloging CD-ROMs. If you've never spent a Saturday like that, I recommend never trying it. Unless you want to be a cataloger, in which case DEFINITELY try it and you will be forever cured. Once I got home I had even more work to do on that little gem of a project, so going to a movie was not happening. I rented In the Loop instead, and very little work actually got done. Huh-larious! (Please picture Tracy Morgan saying that.) I love those Brits. Wish I was one. Also, James Gandolfini and the girl from My Girl (who reminded me of the obnoxiously political career-driven types from my undergrad in all the right ways). Whoa. DO see this one if you haven't! If I had money I would already own it.

Today I had brunch with Danielle, always a highlight of the week, and then we went fabric shopping... quite unsuccessfully as it turns out most fabric stores aren't open on Sunday (side note: I didn't even realize it was Sunday until this point in the day... sad). Still, always nice to hang with her. I finally stocked my fridge with all sorts of fresh goodness, ran errands, joined the gayest gym in the country and rented Paris 36 (so excited). I'm not really enjoying the fact that my weeks are so cramped with work from sun up to sun down that Sunday is my only day to do life things... but you do what you gotta do. I'll return to some sort of normalcy in my 30s. Oh gosh, I did not just type that. Yes I did. Ugh.

Tonight I've lured Swinny over with the promise of a home cooked meal and someone to do yet more work with. Whether or not that actually happens is debatable but this project is due tonight either way, so I'm going to try. Working on my spirituality and "me" time? Dating? Meeting people? Catching one of the bajillion great bands playing here on any given night of the week? A distant dream...

"For most of history, Anonymous was a woman."

Virginia Woolf died today in 1941.
I will always be indebted to her for opening my mind and changing the way I see things, both as a woman and aesthetically. Her writing influenced the way I watch movies and the way my brain processes the sensory world around me.
Mrs. Dalloway has been my favorite book since I read it in 8th grade. Even though I didn't understand it then like I do now, I admired the way she used words in the same way that one admires the way Michael Chapman or Nestor Almendros uses a camera.
If you haven't read it, you really should.

"Clarissa had a theory in those days . . . that since our apparitions, the part of us which appears, are so momentary compared with the other, the unseen part of us, which spreads wide, the unseen might survive, be recovered somehow attached to this person or that, or even haunting certain places after death . . . perhaps—perhaps."
- Virginia Woolf

Friday, March 26, 2010

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

I read this book on one of my many plane rides between Dallas and New York last August and man, it resonated... which I guess is a weird thing to say about a crime novel involving sadistic torture and murder. But what can I say? I'm a strange bird. Though I found our male lead to be a bit hollow, I absolutely identified with the protagonist, Lisbeth, an angry, anti-social anti-hero, and a believably strong female lead. I also dug the haunting Bergmanesque landscape and never got bored, which is my personal mark of a good read.

A film based on the book is out now, and I'm actually really excited about it because it's totally Swedish and seems like it managed to avoid any Hollywood contamination. I'm going to try to see it tonight.

Anyone else read the book/seen the movie?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Happy Ada Lovelace Day!

Big ups to the ladies of math, science and technology!
Heartless Doll inspires (and brings the lols) with a list of the women they honor today.

I miss someone.

P.S. Best birthday cake ever?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

B is 8 years old... what?!

I'm a little in shock. I'm not one of those parents who wants their babies to stay babies forever, but it is a little jolting when you realize you are nowhere near experienced or equipped enough to have an 8-year-old. Still, it's cool watching him grow and I live for birthdays, especially his!

Back in Utah we had dinner with Jaren's grandparents and then a chocolate cherry coke cake that I spent all day making and didn't even get a picture of! (There's video... I'll get it up here one day.) B got this awesome Ninja Turtles Blu-ray box set--it looks like a pizza box!--and a Star Wars lunchbox (filled with candy, of course). Katie made B the coolest white tiger (B's favorite animal) by hand! She took better pictures of it here. He would probably be mad at me for broadcasting this, but he totally loves stuffed animals and sweet, cuddly things. Shhh.
Leaving Salt Lake was hard, especially when we then spent two days trapped in the car in a blizzard that followed us from Utah to Texas, but it was nice that he was forced to hang out with me! I took advantage of it by poking him repeatedly and feeding him Pop Rocks. Most mature mom ever!
Family birthday pictures up next and then I'm done, I swear! This new camera has resurrected a monster...

Sunday, March 21, 2010


We went to this rad place called Classic where the kids had a blast and I got on roller skates for the first time in yeeeeeeears. After about 10 minutes I decided I need to be a derby girl and we spent the next two days coming up with my roller derby name.


B and I spent the week in Salt Lake, hanging with our awesome friends. B got to make up for lost time with his bff Jaren and I got to hang with my Katie and Lainey! We saw Alice in Wonderland, which was just as sloppy as the trailer made it look. The kids weren't even into it, but the loads of greasy food provided by the theatre seemed to make up for it.
Plus these two were just ecstatic to be back together.
Post-movie Baskin Robbins brought back so many childhood memories. Who didn't live for Pink Bubblegum ice cream when they were little?! I know I did.
And then Lainey told me I was her best friend and she loved me and my heart melted all over that cute Hello Kitty hoodie and skinny jeans. Maybe I spent the rest of the week catering to her every whim and letting her put on makeup...

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

b and i watched video of jimi hendrix playing "the star spangled banner" at woodstock. just after "the bombs bursting in air," b said "he's making war sounds, huh?" that was all he said until it was over. then let out a small "wow."

tonight he opened up about someone who has hurt him. his voice shook with anger as he talked about wanting revenge. tears formed in his eyes and there was desperation in his voice. as i hugged him, i felt his frustration release and i realized that he is more like me than i ever imagined... and then how lucky we are to have each other.

Monday, March 15, 2010

secret pre-wedding survival rendezvous

third time as a bridesmaid

I think I should make a career of this.
Wait. No. I'm really done with weddings...
But it is cool to meet men who feel lucky to get to spend forever with my friends.
I am happy for Missy and Ryan, two people so perfect for each other
that it's hard not to believe in soul mates.
I also met a new favorite named Kyndell...
(Can't you just tell how great she is?!)
...and saw Missy be a bride!
I saw so many old friends...
...stressed out a lot and was relieved to send the couple off for a hot night and a cruise to the Bahamas. I think I need one of those too, as a reward for making it through this wedding.

Just sayin'.

I'll put the real pics up if I get them. This is the best I could do.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Day 2 at LC Culpeper

So, what's happening here is that my eyes are puffy and swollen from a bad night and it is 9am, when I am typically full of hate and broken dreams anyway, and I am being forced to smile for a picture.

BUT! I finally have a picture of my whole class to show everyone! Here we are, from left to right... Sam L., June, Erik, Sam O., Ashley, that lovely creature of grace and beauty, and Candace. These are the people I spend just about every day of my life with.

We started out today in the nitrate vaults which put me in a significantly more attractive mood. All of this stuff is nitrate film (now banned because it's highly combustible/can kill Nazis) and we got to handle and inspect it!

Yes, Ashley.
The curled up piece of film with the note attached is a piece of court evidence from the Edison trial which ruled that he created transparent film stock.
And these jewels, which need no explanation...
And, finally, your's nerdy. Planning her future.
We spent the second half of the day learning audio. I maybe don't get quite as excited about audio, but I definitely learned so much and feel like I finally understand preservation and listening standards. Which is relevant if you like to, you know, listen to things.

Back to the above picture. I am actually planning my life here. I've been doing a lot of that lately, and feel like things are all coming together in my head these last couple days. It's so exciting to learn that my crazy dreams are maybe not so crazy. B and I are going to have the raddest life ever! Also, I have better hair and posture than that normally. Again... mornings.

The nights have been full of big dinners, room parties and me booty dancing in tights. Also, I remembered 80% of the words to "Chickenhead" by Project Pat... which I have not heard since high school. I am not proud... but maybe a little proud.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Every film... ever.

We're in Culpeper, VA this week at the insane Library of Congress film archive. It is exactly what I expect a real super villain lair to look like.
70mm Space Odyssey!!!
Nitrate vaults!
Projectors! (Lord of the Rings large aspect ratio and a 1902 film... ah!)
These archive trips are exactly what I needed to reinvigorate me in this program and find some direction toward my career. Yes, today was awesome.
I promise to make this blog less nerdy in the very near future! This weekend is Missy's wedding and then B time! Lots of fun pictures and stories... promise.